I have vague memories that have come to light. My mind blocked out events that took place in Seattle. Things I thought my brother taught me was really you. I thought my conversations and events with my cousin Kurt, were with Kurt Cobain. I look back as a viewer in third person having fractured memories. I’ve written a script and was unable to identity your character. I did an interview and was told my brother didn’t really support on what made me tick. I don’t know who I was back then, and forgot that I was a vegan and had an eating disorder only eating sunflowers and enjoying the pain of hunger.
I was raised with M.K. Ultra exposure. My brother went into the C.I.A. before moving to Seattle for my music career. I know that I’m not the best singer, but I’m a very talented songwriter. I plan on getting better and do have goals of doing another album in the distance future. Music has always been a hobby. I do like performing as Marilyn. Marilyn Monroe being the poster child for M.K. Ultra.
I guess, what I’m trying to say, is that I was totally wrong for you. I guess I always believed this, even though we had an 8th month relationship out of 2 years and 3-month time period living in the Northwest. Everything was a fog or dream like memories that my cousin, Kurt convinced me were disillusions.
I am a product of my environment. People have been mean to me my whole life and the reason why suicide has never been an option, because I don’t know any different. You used me. Yes, you gave me a credit card, which I used to pay for Kurt’s abortion. I remember now, I would explain later, so now is the time to say something.
I thought I was dying and suffered from anorexia. I stopped eating and never wanted a baby as a young adult. Kurt put a pin in the condom and do remember being told by his groupie friends and seeing it for myself. I don’t remember conversations or details of Kurt or you, since I was attacked by the Green River Killer in the early 90s. Everything I’ve heard that struck fractured memories has been in the media. It has helped, yet, a blessing and a curse.
Merry Christmas!!
CP
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